Life after you (open)

[immy]

I held onto you for as long as I could but today, you fell away
Now all I hold are the memories we barely made
I stood on the edge of your bridge until I felt the rain, wash me away
My confusion left me fast as the vertigo came….

Tucker stepped away from the small copse of trees that he had left Magnolia, resisting the urge to turn his head and check on her. He had no doubt she was faking sleep but knew that if he suffocated her any more that she may very well leave him the same way her mother had once she got the chance. If she wished to have time to herself he had to stuff his paternal instincts and allow her this time… and perhaps he needed it too. The sun had set not long ago and the sky was still grey and cast over with clouds, not a single star peeking from the heavens but the warmth in the wind gave no doubt that it was spring. He shuddered, remembering last spring when Clara had been heavy with foal and he had fooled himself into believing that they were a happy family. Calling her face to mind left a bitter taste in his mouth and instead he turned his attention to the green fields that lay before him, the grass swaying slightly in the evening wind. Tuckers’ every instinct told him to keep running, if he never stopped then he could never think… never remember. He knew that was no way to live but facing down the events of the past did not seem to him an option. Tucker had never been violent, he was slow to anger and quick to forgive but the fury that spilled out of him the night that he fought Gideon, his closest and only friend, had felt surprisingly good. He had swallowed his anger, his hurt, for so long and simply been that dependable fellow that everyone could walk all over that it was a wonderful release to speak the truth. But the actions that had followed had been out of his control. He closed his eyes as the sickening crack of Gideons’ breaking leg echoed in his mind.

Tucker fought back the memories and finally turned around to where he had left Magnolia and sure enough she was gone. He fought the panic that bubbled up in him. He had taught her well, she could manage herself for a few hours and that was what she so desperately wanted – to be somewhere safe that she could escape his shadow. His daughter was nearly a full year old and needed time to find her own personality. Tucker knew it was damaging her, to be so isolated and to have never had a friend. He sighed, the breath coming out in a rush and felt his shoulders slump. Guilt roiled within him for so many things but all he could do was move forward. Do better, be better… and maybe eventually be happy. He opened his eyes to the world again and this time there were stars blinking at him from the beautiful navy sky above. This place was as good as any, for now, and as he stood staring at the sky he felt a slow calm wash over him. A feeling that was almost serene, and maybe slightly hopeful.

What I believed to be true, it was only a dream
That lived in me
I just projected it over your beautiful screen

ooc | So... I havent written in like two years so Im hoping it's not too shabby. Open to anyone. The lyrics at the top and bottom are ©Sick Puppies, anywhere but here

[templebar]

The young mare had watched as shadows grew longer, before the sun finally set to its resting place for the night, now the moon too over, or at least it was supposed to when the clouds would part enough to let it shine. Right now it was just a dull light in the sky hidden behind layers of grey cloud, that she felt threatened to give them a shower of rain at some point in this night although not quite yet. The mare walked through the meadow, not bothered by the absence of light as eyes which appeared to have a light of their own, gave her incredible sight at night, which was one of her reasons for preferring to travel at night. As her limbs moved quietly but not silently through the long grasses of the meadow, she began to think again about her reasons for being here and if she would yet find any answers to her questions, would anyone know of her sister, the one they say was born monstrous, with a skin that appeared to be only paper thin and nearly translucent. Unlike her coat which instead of being able to see through she had markings which glowed faintly, in a collection of swirls on top of her smokey coloured coat. Suddenly the moons glow shone through and light up the field in a blaze of dazzling light, she looked up and was surprised to see the clouds had cleared, to reveal the night sun and its accompanying stars which each appeared to shine with their own light and often other colours glowed, although these were pale and you wouldn’t notice if you didn’t look. The mare knew these stars, many a night they had guided her in new directions and it had never failed her yet. Her mother had taught her some of the famous star names one, when she was a small filly and she could recall some now. Others occasionally she made up to amuse herself if needed, giving them names and stories, she hoped one day when her searching was done and she could settle at last, with peace in her heart that she could tell these tales to her children. But not before her searching was done, until then she could not rest and settle with this hole in her heart. She noticed ahead of her an equine, stood in the grasses, head tilted to the sky, perhaps he was admiring the stars and their stories too, or perhaps he needed them to be his guide. She approached the stallion who shone like a beacon as the moon hit his coat and made it gleam in the darkness, she noticed that he was not quite completely white but had two strands of red, one for his tail and the other in his mane, the nights wind tossed them playfully while he stood there, not even noticing her coming close. “Hello, can i help?” She spoke before getting too close, she did not want to startle the stallion and possibly anger him, but at the same time she could not leave without first checking everything was ok, if he needed guidance she may be able to help and you never know he may have information that she required for her own journey. words: 550 tagged: immy muse: Good, hope this is ok for you, btw your post was fine.

[immy]

so go on, and tear me apart
yeah, just go on – aim straight for my chest
Maybe it's mostly my fault
'cause if I'm the only one you ever had
I guess I can't be the best

Tucker felt his body relax as the gentle winds blew around him, with the stars twinkling down on him and the sounds of the night caressing him. The dual-colored stallion let the peacefulness of the moment overwhelm him and found himself drifting away. It was nice, to have no actual thoughts swirling around in his ever-busy mind but instead the calm of just nothing. He was completely dumb to the fact that a young mare approached but as she spoke he turned, slightly startled and felt the calm slowly ebb away replaced by an almost pleasant nervous feeling that was generated from such a long time without the company of another equine, aside from his daughter of course. He felt the wind tuck on his tresses and he shook his head about, trying to tame the unruly ones but the action was very much in vain. He did not jump, although he was startled, simply turned to face the mare who almost… no, she did… she glowed

He could not help but feel a smile tug at his lips as he took her in, her eyes definitely let off a light. He had never seen a creature so different, but at the same time lovely. He ducked his head, a sort of half-bow, as acknowledgement but it took him a moment to find words. He had been so distracted by the fact that there was actually someone there that he had to think back a moment on what she had said to him. She had asked if she could help him… and she could, anyone could, but how he did not know. He was lost in his own head, swimming in his memories and insecurities, chained by his fears yet slowly treading toward a future full of hope… full of something. He didn’t think before he answered of course, so much time outside of normal conversation had allowed him to forget manner for a moment. I honestly don’t know. I’m new around here… and I suppose I’m going to stay. I feel lost… not in the physical sense of course and I’m not sure how to pull myself out of the maze.

He stopped then, withdrawing into himself for a moment as flashes of the past bombarded him. This was not how an introduction was supposed to go. So much for casual conversation. He had simply cracked his head open and laid his thoughts bare for her. She must think him quite mad. I… I apologize. I must sound silly. I have been long without company aside from that of my daughter and I have quite forgotten my manners, his words came out quickly, almost tumbling over one another as he tried to recover from his blunder. Magnolia had told him he was too open, too raw, and that had been part of what made him so vulnerable to the… incident… with Clara. Keep some mystery, she always said that, but Tucker didn’t have an ounce of finesse in his bones. I am Tucker, and I apologize for being so… strange. He ducked his head then, forelock falling over one of his eyes as he peeked out at her hoping that he had not put her off too much with his rambling.

Lyrics ©Gregory and the Hawk, Bravo Charlie

ooc | Done. Yours was lovely. Ill be out of town until Tuesday so Im not sure how much Ill be online during the time Im away.

[templebar]

She watched with her odd coloured eyes, the one blue and the other purple, as he turned sharply to face her and he seemed stunned before letting a smile stake over his features. After a moment he lowered his skull in what appeared to be a bowing motion, she had never come across this custom before and it made no sense to her to be so vulnerable to a stranger. The confusion showed on her face an ear flicking back and forth as if trying to make sense of this behaviour, this stallion seemed rather odd, as she waited patiently to see if he would reply. Maybe he would not, perhaps he could not was there something wrong with him? Was he mute? She opened her mouth as she was about to ask him when he finally started to speak, but what followed was a tirade of words, tumbling over each other as they spilled his heart into the open. She stepped back slightly a bit taken aback by his outburst although it did not bother her is was more the surprise than anything else, she had never met another so open. How do you reply to that she wondered after he finished, still appearing puzzled she looked over him once again trying to find the words to say, to help him. “I.... I’m Sorry.” She spoke not sure what else to say, but he then spoke again the words were again a muddle, he was apologising for his behaviour and explaining that he had not spoken to many as of late and his manners were not with him. This did not bother her much, after all she was used to being alone herself, and she did not care much for cultures and set manners although she did always try to be kind. “It is ok, no need to apologise.” She spoke her tones calm and quiet as she tried to calm down this stallion that through his words seemed to be a little on edge, perhaps anxious. Finally he spoke once more, this time is seemed calmer, perhaps her own way was working, she had found when she spoke to others that she came across quite soothing, which was not always helpful in aiding her own missions. His last words told her his name and again apologised despite her having said not to, but then she knew that some creatures could not help but keep saying sorry and she suspected that he may be one of these types. He followed his words with a dip of his head again, which she noticed allowed his locks to fall across his face, the red streak appeared striking against his pale white coat. “Hello Tucker, it is nice to meet you, I am Luminescence.” She spoke her name this time in formal introductions. “Does your daughter still come with you? Where is she tonight?” The glowing mare asked her eyes still in contact with his, she hoped she was not too bold with her questions but manners were not a strong point of her own, yet she had no reason to apologise. “Why are you here?” she finished with another question, he said he was lost but there must be some reason for him being here, maybe he was searching for someone too, perhaps it was his daughter. words: 556 tagged: immy muse: I like this thread, he seems nice.

[immy]

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.

He had his eyes focused on her feet for a few moments but as she spoke he felt his world suddenly shift back into place. He was still hot with embarrassment but it was as if everything was suddenly there again and he was no longer lost in his attempt to communicate. It was as if he had been absent for so long and he suddenly stepped back into his body. He lifted his face, pale blue eyes meeting her mis-matched ones. Apologies come easy for me, especially when I am at a loss for words. At the mention of Magnolia he turned in the direction he had left her but knew she was not there. His ears turned as if he were listening for her although he knew he would hear nothing. She had been itching to break free for so long that he did not begrudge her these few hours to herself, she was smart and could care for herself and he had no doubt she would return to him… at least tonight. He feared once she was grown though that she would leave for good and he would have no one. And this time it would truly be no one without Gideon at his side. He was sick with the thought that he had let the passion of a one-sided relationship rise over the friendship of years. Gideon had been his companion, his brother – his only true ally and they had let the passion for a woman come between them. Gideon had been at fault… it was true but Tucker had taken it over the edge when he had resorted to violence to resolve the situation and he shuddered at the thought of what must have become of his companion.

His body trembled as he pulled himself out of his own head and turned his attention back to the lady before him. Magnolia is… wandering. She has been stuck with me for so long that I do not blame her for seeking this small escape. She has an independent streak that sometimes frightens me but I do not doubt that she will return soon, he said, his voice soft and sure even though fear rippled through his veins. Fear of the future and what it might hold. This was his chance though, his only chance, at creating a life for himself. This place would have to save him from the horror that was a life alone with no one. I am trying to make a life. I’ve been a vagabond for so long that I’m not sure I truly know how anymore but that is my intention. To find a place and try to forge some sort of happiness. He turned his gaze to the stars for a moment, still trying to pull his thoughts away from the past. It seemed that was a constant struggle anymore. What about you, what brings you here?

Lyrics ©James Blunt, same mistake

ooc | sorry that took like a year and is awful

[templebar]

She watched his eyes wander, they seemed to search for a place to settle, mostly searching the ground but then they rose to meet her own eyes with their two tones, this time he seemed to be behind them a little more, he did not appear so lost as before. He told her how apologies came so easy to him and more so when he could find little else to say it appeared, she smiled slightly her eyes lighting up as she was a little flattered by his words. He turned his head away and she was not sure if he had seen as she regained her composure, she shouldn’t really be here as she was on a mission and she already had gathered that he was probably not of much use to her. He seemed too lost in his own thoughts of his past to be able to really notice what might be happening all around him, let alone to notice what may become of the two of them here and now. He was a lost soul who somehow needed to be brought back to reality, to forget his past no matter how hard and to live for the now and for the future. Her lashes fluttered shut across those odd coloured eyes as these thoughts played across the mares mind her ears twitching back and forth with each thought, she sighed softly realising that she would end up trying to help this stallion she could not possibly leave him as he was, which was actually a danger not only to himself but others around him due to his lacking awareness. As she opened her eyes she saw him shudder and began to talk again, as before it was stuttered and a little long winded but she humoured him by listening to every word, she assumed Magnolia was the daughter he spoke of before which made sense for his worry which tinged his words, there was fear there too a deep sense of it although he tried to cover it well. She could understand this although she had no daughters of her own she had a sister and she felt such a close bond with her although they had hardly met. It was her sister in which the mare was so desperate to find, to ensure that she had lived well and that if possible that Lumi could help in the future. The stallion spoke again and stated his intentions for the future and confirmed her thoughts that he was lost by stating that he was not sure how to find a place and settle after being alone for so long. ”I’m sure she will be fine, you will have raised her well and she will know not to enter into danger.” The mare smiled as she spoke hoping her words would offer some comfort no matter how little as he would still worry and always worry for his daughter, which was the way it was meant to be right? He spoke again after thought and asked of her own intentions in being here, a frown crossed her eyes briefly as she pondered whether she should tell him or not, but there was no harm surely in him knowing and she could never be sure maybe he might know more than what she thought. ”I am here in search of my sister, i know little of her since we were separated near birth but i do know i have followed her far and feel close to finally finding her.” Her words contained a determined streak within them that would let anyone know this was more of a mission for her, carried out for love of a sibling. ”I can try to help you if you like but i wish to not stray too far from my cause.” she spoke once more offering to the stallion to help him although how she was not yet sure, but it was up to him if he chose to take this offer or not. words: 671 tagged: immy muse: So sorry for the wait i had this written and thought i posted but hadnt, i understand if you dont want to continue.